Deep thoughts

I am moving my things out of the rat-infested stenchdive today. I could have done it earlier but like everything else I had to procrastinate until I had no choice. I might steal Maenan's banjo..it has been in the closet since she received it on her birthday. I like the idea of sitting around strumming a banjo. I get a twinge of guilt whenever I think about starting a new hobby because there are probably other things I should be doing with my time. Guilt is one of my most prominent feelings...guilt would be were grains are if I think about a food pyramid of my emotions.

I feel better now with Adderol. I have more energy than I ever have had. I am afraid I will get addicted to it. I keep picturing myself as a junky for amphetamines...is this my gateway drug? Could this medication be a slippery slope to crystal meth addiction? Do you stumble blindly towards addiction or can you see it on the horizon? Am I just feeling guilty about feeling better? Hmm..well I spose we will see soon enough. Hopefully someone will tap me on the shoulder before I end up like Winehouse.